| Another dream |
[Feb. 8th, 2011|04:57 pm] |
My dream last night was another very interestingly vivid one. The most recent and vivid part in my my memory began with a video game as my dreams often do. I was playing a text based online role playing game that I heard my roommate Z played, with the intention of trying to find him on the game. As I started the game it was as though I entered the game world completely, though in my mind I still knew it was a game and I had an awareness that somewhere I was sitting at a computer typing everything that was happening and not actually doing it. It felt like a striking parallel to lucid dreaming upon waking.
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| I woke up from a dream |
[Feb. 24th, 2010|06:13 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | break up, dream, song | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Phoenix, AZ | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Home, by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros | ] |
I woke up from a dream just now. She had told me she wanted to get back together and I went back to Texas. Then, the day I got there, she told me she had met someone else and she thought I should go again. Then her Dad visited, and he was very excited and in a good mood. He had brought some flyers describing a free class on fiscal responsibility and finances and taxpaying which seemed designed for married couples. We read it over, and she had to tell him the truth was we had decided to break up. He looked shot through with pain and crushed hope and he started to cry. I started to cry too. I looked at him and told him that I was so sorry, that I loved his daughter, that I wanted to be with her and I had tried my hardest but she didn’t want to be with me. He nodded and seemed to really believe me and understand from the look that passed between us. Then he balled up the flyer and threw it down and walked out. Then I woke up with this song stuck in my head. Home, by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=id4vnQE0ok4
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Why am I posting this after being quiet so long? Because I think it gets at what I'm feeling inside, and I used to use livejournal as my dream journal. This one felt important enough to write down.
My friend asked me last night if I thought I would ever find love. I did find it, many times. I’ve still got it. I’m not the one who lost it.
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| I have a roomate (or 2) |
[Aug. 6th, 2008|01:02 am] |
So... bad things happened in Thousand Oaks and I broke up with Stephanie and moved to Panorama City to be closer to school. She moved up north to Seattle and I visited her once but was generally glad to be out of a relationship, spending all of my time either working on school, reading, watching movies, or playing online games. One of which being Garoumush which is a WOD werewolf game which I got really into where I met this Girl who at first I thought was a guy and eventually we got along so well I went on a trip to Texas to meet her. Things went even better and we congealed into a relationship, but then I missed my flight and had to stay another week which wasn't so bad. Except that I spent a bunch of money and now there seems to be this rumor that I blew my grandparent's money on my new internet girlfriend when it was a just a mistake. Since then I missed picking up Stephanie from the airport, and getting her back to the airport, on a visit which was somewhat ill fated and led to some problems with my new relationship but fortunately I was lucky enough to get it all sorted out and me and Tessa are still together. So together in fact that she is here beside me right now peeling an orange which is usually difficult for her but she was victorious. She would be gone now but Imanaged to help her miss her flight because I'm so good at it. In fact I'm so good at it that even though we were there on time she still missed her flight. And also I thought I was screwed because my roomate moved out before I could find another roomate and I was scared I was going to have to pay the full rent, which I did, but just tonight some people from a block down the street came to look at the place and I will have a couple joining me for cohabitation tomorrow. Which is good. Summer school goes well and soon enough I need to write my papers so I can get an A and then finish my next semester of school and graduate. Because the next is the last. And then god knows what but I'll be looking for a film job somewhere. Austin perhaps. I do hate hollywood after all. |
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| Money As Debt |
[Aug. 29th, 2007|02:02 am] |
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| | | "Money As Debt" on Google Video |  |
This video explains who the elite who control the world are, and it's quite simple. Bankers create the world's money, all money is debt, the central banks control the world. Everyone should see this.
Paul Grignon's 47-minute animated presentation of "Money as Debt" tells in very simple and effective graphic terms what money is and how it is being created. It is an entertaining way to get the message out. The Cowichan Citizens Coalition and its "Duncan Initiative" received high praise from those who previewed it. I recommend it as a painless but hard-hitting educational tool and encourage the widest distribution and use by all groups concerned with the present unsustainable monetary system in Canada and the United States.
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[Feb. 3rd, 2006|02:19 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Howard Shore-The Treason of Isengard | ] |
( Quiz thing ) |
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| A sound of thunder |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|01:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | None | ] |
Word has mysteriously vanished from the computer. Is notepad lowbrow, poverty level word processing? Does wordwrap really change my margins at all? Is there any formatting left, besides a page break?
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| Guilty Pleasures! |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|02:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  guilty | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Sigur Ros - Gong Endir | ] |
Cursed by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.2) crestedpenguin.
1. Eating constantly
This might seem like a hard one to pull off, but I don't have a problem with it. I am rarely found far from food. I amass large hoards of individually wrapped candies in my pockets for easy consumption. These are usually begotten by trick or treating or other holidays, then the candy is frozen and spread out over the year until I can hoard more. Often this hoard grows faster than I eat it and I am forced to eat large quantities in a hedonistic binge rivaling the orgies of bacchus! There’s only one real reason I should maybe feel guilty about this, and it’s my next on the list.
2. Maintaining the same weight forever
This is just luck. None of my other guilty pleasure support this in any way, in fact they should do the opposite. But that’s exactly what makes it enjoyable. I’m just blessed with a very high metabolism. The main drawback is water seems to pass through me faster than most people. But I’ve weighed the same for ten years, it’s right on my driver’s license.
3. Stealing baked goods
I know, stealing is supposed to be wrong. But when you know those croissants are baked fresh daily and they are going to be thrown out in a few hours, something just has to be done. Honestly, I feel nothing about making use of anything so perishable, no matter what right I have to it, if I can see it’s going to be wasted. And, I feel funny about paying for something that’s just going to be thrown out if I don’t. Like a rube! But who’s the rube now?
4. Letting my cat lick my mouth
He started it. He’s too cute to deny. There was a time when I would pull away, but now I just lay on my back and take it. Kissing must just be some universal mammalian sign of affection, or at least licking is. But for the cat it seems to lack all the sexual implications, it’s simply loving affection. I used to think he was trying to get food out of my teeth, but really he goes straight for my tongue. He will forcibly press his face against my teeth and wedge them open if I don’t let him have at it peacefully. Which… I do now. Makes me feel all warm and cuddly inside.
5. Cheesy pop culture exclamations
Dude! Fantasmic! Hella cool! Hecka cool! Da bomb! Tha shiznat! Jawsome! Cowabunga! Woot! Rockzors! Tubular! Frickin sweet! Hoopla! Bonzai! For the King! Rad! Neat! Spicy! Ri-hi-heally! Wicked Hawt! Sucks to your Ass-mar! Put that in a pipe and smoke it! Hobag!
I pass the torch to abbyanne, bright_eyes106, ongruth, llirium, or whoever wants it. Frankly, I don't give a damn. |
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| Archyopterix? |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|10:56 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Annoying sound of the card reader for printing in the lab | ] |
I just finished filming my first movie at CSUN, The Samaratin, and I think it turned out really well. I worked as cinematographer for the film, and the director's roomate took some behind the scenes pictures. They're at:
photo.halbergman.com/thesamaritan
I get to see the rough cut in an hour or so in my next class. I can't wait.
This morning, in my Geology class, I was quite tired, having only 6 hours of sleep or so, and at the end of class the teacher was lecturng on how a Coral-strome reef is formed in three steps. Immediately after he instructed us to pull out a piece of paper and describe just that. I was drifting in and out of conciousness during that time so I had to glance at my notes since my memory was foggy, and I had drawn a sloppy diagram of the process. To the right of it, where I should have described the steps I wrote, "Aliens... hide the guns" This was discouraging. |
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